Random Stuff (Stacy - 3/11/10)

Hello Friend-

Brian has encouraged me a few times to post about that piece of paper I carry in my wallet.  The one you left on my car so many years ago with the words that you wrote for me.  What I haven’t told him is how many times I’ve tried to write about it and find myself stuck.  What I haven’t told him is how pissed off I was at you that day.  What I haven’t told him is that every time I try to write it I just feel horrible for being so annoyed and frustrated with you over something so unimportant. What I wish is that I could be having that day (crappy as it was) with you now. 

I still miss you all of the time.  I think of you most everyday (the curse of working from home without other people to distract me leaves me alone with my thoughts).  Alison said your name for the first time last week.  I tell her stories about you and often when she does something cute I tell her how much her Uncle Rory would have loved her.  After I said that to her the other day she just looked up at me and said “Wory”.  I asked her to repeat herself just so I could be sure I had heard her correctly.  She just kept saying your name with a big smile on her face.  My face did not hold the same smile.  In fact I think I forgot how to stand for a few minutes.  I sat in the hallway crying while she ran back and forth yelling your name.  She stopped just long enough to walk over and give me a hug.  She has no idea what she’s missing in not having you here.  I know what she’s missing and I know what I’m missing.

I'm not sure these hurt feelings are ever going away. 

I miss you friend.

Always,

Stacy

PS I watched 2 things last night you would have enjoyed watching.  First up was the Larry Bird/MagicJohnson rivalry and the second was 30 Clubs in 30 Days spring training with the Twins.  You are impressed right?  Did you just fall over from the shock that not only did I sit through both of these I actually taped & then stayed up late to watch them?  I have some new favorites on the Twins team.  I'm not sure if they are any good but I now have a super crush on Nick Blackburn and I want to hang out with Orlando Hudson (he's hilarious).

It's gonna be a big year!!!!